An absolutely amazing transformation has happened in my life. I am happy. I am truly at peace with everything in my immediate world. Sure, the cancer is still looming over my father in law...the stroke still paralyzing a good friend, my mom is still lost and sad...but I am happy. You won't even believe what the tipping point was for me...I traded in my minivan for a new sleek Jeep Commander V-8 Hemi engine fully loaded gas guzzling TRUCK. I've got my groove back! I did something for myself...I got ready of that sticky, soul selling, label producing, trash collecting house on wheels and in return have a little bit of the old Stef has resurfaced. I've been keeping my new truck pristine clean and it feels really good. Actually it felt so good that I went out and got a smashing new Posh Spice inspired do and have been wearing makeup on a regular basis. Now I am not insinuating that the car I drive is really what propelled me into happiness land. I think that I, for the first time since my children were born, I did something I that I really wanted to do instead of what i thought I was supposed to do. I'm taking care of what's mine materialistically and physically. I've got some pride back and am appreciating the blessings I have more and more each day. I'd even venture to say that I am...gasp...optimistic? I'm amazed at the fact that just small tweaks in life can free you of a burden you didn't realize you were carrying.
This series of events has caused me to look at other areas as well and I feel like I am finally making some mental strides.
This authentic life movement is fabulous. Or is this a quarter life crisis? I'm not totally sure...but I don't really care...I feel good.
