An absolutely amazing transformation has happened in my life. I am happy. I am truly at peace with everything in my immediate world. Sure, the cancer is still looming over my father in law...the stroke still paralyzing a good friend, my mom is still lost and sad...but I am happy. You won't even believe what the tipping point was for me...I traded in my minivan for a new sleek Jeep Commander V-8 Hemi engine fully loaded gas guzzling TRUCK. I've got my groove back! I did something for myself...I got ready of that sticky, soul selling, label producing, trash collecting house on wheels and in return have a little bit of the old Stef has resurfaced. I've been keeping my new truck pristine clean and it feels really good. Actually it felt so good that I went out and got a smashing new Posh Spice inspired do and have been wearing makeup on a regular basis. Now I am not insinuating that the car I drive is really what propelled me into happiness land. I think that I, for the first time since my children were born, I did something I that I really wanted to do instead of what i thought I was supposed to do. I'm taking care of what's mine materialistically and physically. I've got some pride back and am appreciating the blessings I have more and more each day. I'd even venture to say that I am...gasp...optimistic? I'm amazed at the fact that just small tweaks in life can free you of a burden you didn't realize you were carrying.
This series of events has caused me to look at other areas as well and I feel like I am finally making some mental strides.
This authentic life movement is fabulous. Or is this a quarter life crisis? I'm not totally sure...but I don't really care...I feel good.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Tagged, I'm it!
Tagged by my new buddy Mindy @ The Wish Studio (http://www.thewishstudio.blogspot.com/)
*We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.
*Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.*
*People who are tagged write their own blog post about their eight things and include these rules.
*At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged and they should read your blog.
1. I am an Amoeba. I see my life as ever changing and I am only comfortable in chaos. I have a hard time just "being" and create my own issues to work out because I am so lost with what I really need to address.
2. I love to be crafty but I'm not very good at one particular thing. I can knit, a little. Crochet, a little. Paint, a little. Bead, a little...etc.
3. Horses make me the happiest person in the world. I would love to be able to make time to ride and wish I could find someone who needed their horse exercised for free.
4. I've had a hard time making friends in Massachusetts. I moved here a few years ago and have made only a few connections. I left Maryland as a super connected, booked solid, socialite of sorts and my self esteem has taken a beating because of it. I am still mourning the loss of Angela who was my BFF here. She moved to Atlanta last month to be closer to her own family and I miss her desperately. In fact, I am not even sure how I will pass this on to 8 people. I only know 4 bloggers.
5. I love teen movies and romantic comedies. Varsity Blues, Corina Corina, Two Weeks Notice, Bring It On, 13 Going on 30 and Freaky Friday just to name a few. (no wonder i have no friends)
6. I know a thing or 2 about music and can do a mean running man. I think I've gained so much weight because I no longer spend my weekends cutting the rug. Oh and maybe the non-stop stress eating but that's for another blog.
7. The only person I can spend non-stop time with is my husband. He might get on my nerves every now and again but I truly can spend every waking moment with him and not get bored. He's hysterical and I thank God that I found the yin to my yang.
8. I have no idea what I want to do with my life professionally and wish someone would just wave a magic wand give me the answer. I'm been searching for a long time now and nothing seems to click and stick. I'm getting tired and discouraged. Surly I am meant to do more than this?
I will tag the incredibly talented Tan!a http://woordnbeeld.blogspot.com/ and my very funny friend PJ
http://brownriggpicturehome.blogspot.com/
*We have to post these rules before we give you the facts.
*Players start with eight random facts/habits about themselves.*
*People who are tagged write their own blog post about their eight things and include these rules.
*At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged and they should read your blog.
1. I am an Amoeba. I see my life as ever changing and I am only comfortable in chaos. I have a hard time just "being" and create my own issues to work out because I am so lost with what I really need to address.
2. I love to be crafty but I'm not very good at one particular thing. I can knit, a little. Crochet, a little. Paint, a little. Bead, a little...etc.
3. Horses make me the happiest person in the world. I would love to be able to make time to ride and wish I could find someone who needed their horse exercised for free.
4. I've had a hard time making friends in Massachusetts. I moved here a few years ago and have made only a few connections. I left Maryland as a super connected, booked solid, socialite of sorts and my self esteem has taken a beating because of it. I am still mourning the loss of Angela who was my BFF here. She moved to Atlanta last month to be closer to her own family and I miss her desperately. In fact, I am not even sure how I will pass this on to 8 people. I only know 4 bloggers.
5. I love teen movies and romantic comedies. Varsity Blues, Corina Corina, Two Weeks Notice, Bring It On, 13 Going on 30 and Freaky Friday just to name a few. (no wonder i have no friends)
6. I know a thing or 2 about music and can do a mean running man. I think I've gained so much weight because I no longer spend my weekends cutting the rug. Oh and maybe the non-stop stress eating but that's for another blog.
7. The only person I can spend non-stop time with is my husband. He might get on my nerves every now and again but I truly can spend every waking moment with him and not get bored. He's hysterical and I thank God that I found the yin to my yang.
8. I have no idea what I want to do with my life professionally and wish someone would just wave a magic wand give me the answer. I'm been searching for a long time now and nothing seems to click and stick. I'm getting tired and discouraged. Surly I am meant to do more than this?
I will tag the incredibly talented Tan!a http://woordnbeeld.blogspot.com/ and my very funny friend PJ
http://brownriggpicturehome.blogspot.com/
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